1095 Days With Beast

I cant believe it has been 3 years since Beast was born.
Like i've said many times, i regret the most for not being their fan since day one but although i got to know them a bit late (during Shock era), it's still amazing how long it has been since i started fangirling over them.
All my love for them cant be put into words. (argh.... this blogpost is so hard.... i dunno what to say... sorry if this blogpost is all over the place...)
All the great memories.... and some great ppl i've met through Beast.
All the amazing songs~ I really love ALL Beast's songs. I'm not biased or anything, they are really all so nice.
I seriously can just put one of Beast's song on repeat for an hour. Then change to another Beast song and listen for the next hour. That's what happens when i'm doing maths and accounts.
And i still smile every time Oasis's intro start playing. Same thing goes for Break Down and Freeze. and Beautiful and a lot of other songs.
if you want me to say what i like about each song, i could but i wont because that would take forever.

All the crazy stuff i'll do for Beast. Like rushing into Singapore in the heavy rain alone (i was 16 back then) after my exams just to see Beast. and it was an unforgettable experience. one of the craziest thing i've done.
DONGWOON SPOKE TO ME THAT DAY. HAHAHAHAHA I'M JUST SO PROUD AND I'M GONNA SAY IT EVERYTIME TO SHOW OFF TO EVERYONE. XD
And spending all my allowances on them TT____TT. all my money gone to Cube. TT____TT

Watching back some of their old videos and performances... it's just so incredible how much they've improved. and getting more and more handsome and charismatic~ killing me with their charms everyday! Over the years, watching them improve and seeing the number of B2utys increasing, it has been an amazing journey. To share their pain and happiness.
Beast never fails to surprise me, they never disappoint me. I'm just so proud of them.
Although they've improved so much but they never changed (if that makes any sense).
Doojoon has been the best leader ever since day one. Now i'm falling hard for his good looks. I dunno why i never fell for him before, he's soooo handsome. i blame it all on dongwoon. And Doojoon's voice~ like oh my gosh. I've been loving his voice since forever. I cant explain it.
Hyunseung is still forever living in his own world. Hyunseung as a part of Troublemaker made him more popular. and gave him that sexy image. which is nothing like him when he's behind the cameras. This poor guy has gone through so much. I really pity him. All i can do is give him more love. And always cheer on him.
Junhyung is still the best rapper. There are so many good rappers out there, but i love his style the most. Maybe also because i've gotten so used to it. Junhyungah, pls take good care of Hara and get married some day~~~ hehehehe
Yoseob's voice still makes me melt every single time i listen to Oasis or Break Down or all other Beast ballads. I have ripped so many audios off videos of him singing and put them in my "Lullaby" playlist and listen to them before i sleep. His voice is so soothing and full of emotion. He's just so precious.
Kikwang has been the most busiest member with his schedules since they debuted but he never loses his smile and determination to do good in everything he does. I also started finding him really attractive this year, more than before. basically, with every comeback of Beast's, i fall more and more in love with them, i dont even know how that is possible.
Dongwoon has been killing me with his good looks since day 1. and to me, he has shown the biggest improvements among the members, both in singing and dancing.

Dongwoon and Doojoon has already posted on their fancafe and i just refuse to go read it because i know i'm gonna cry when i read them. They are the only boys i'll cry for.

Beast will definitely be the last idol group i'll fall so in love with. I cant imagine myself loving another group more than i love them.  No matter how old i'd be, I'm still be a B2uty. I can imagine myself being 60 and still thinking about Beast and listening to their songs and telling my children (if i ever have any), and grandchildren (hehe) all about how amazing Beast is. and i'll influence them into being B2utys too and pass it down to the future generations and make Beast a LEGEND. XD and if you ask me, i'll say that they would never break up unless they have no other choice but to. I believe in their bond and friendship. Although i'd love seeing them shine as solos on stage but they are still shine the brightest as six. through these 3 years, they've constantly shown us how close they are, they always mention each others as "friends" or "family" and not "members". and how they lean on each other so much.

They've grown into being a part of life and i cant get rid of them anymore. and i dont want to. no matter what happens, I'll love Beast forever and ever. till infinity and beyond. that's a promise i'm gonna keep.

lastly, B2UTY is the best fandom ever. it's the one place i feel so comfortable being in.

 our beautiful rose garden. proud to be a part of it. ♥

 those smiles on their faces. ;_____;

 when they shine on stage. as six precious jewels. ♥

 each with their own unique personalities and charms.

 my stylish boys.

 my grooms in white. ♥

 one of my favourite photos of theirs.

 a beautiful family portrait. 

 damn it yongjunhyung. and yoondoojoon and sondongwoon. and janghyunseung and yangyoseob and leekikwang. they need to stop.

i have so much more to say. but this can go on forever. so that's all for now. i'll leave the rest for next year.

and i dont own any of these photos and most of them are watermarked so credit to all those ppl. i dont wanna get bashed by anyone or any fansites and reposting their photos.

An Appreciation Post

It's October 12th! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YONGXUAN~ ♥

I always make birthday posts, so here's one for you! Dont be too touched by it. >__< hehe

You were the first person to talk to me on the first day of college and i wont lie, it was kinda awkward at first. but it got more comfortable not long after~
after Olivia, Minyan and Chinyi left, we only had each other to lean on.
jsyk, i'm so happy to have you as a friend.
my college life would have been a nightmare if not for you.
i'm happy that we are there for each other everytime. we are just two lonely people that needs company right? we'll be forever alone. TT___TT

I love our friendship.

i love how we talk so much until we worry whether the people sitting in front of us in the bus would be annoyed by us. XD

i love how we're so blur and stupid tgt. like seriously, how many times have we done stupid stuff tgt?
for example, signing up for "Run" For Hope, instead of "Jog" For Hope and ended up wasting rm30.
and the time we went to Midvalley and waited for the bus for half and hour because we didnt care to ask whether the buses that came went to Midvalley because we were busy talking non-stop.

I'm a person that likes to talk, a lot (only when with ppl i'm close with), about anything and everything, and i'm so happy that you're a good listener that just let me talk about everything that happens in my life. Because i'm a person that needs to get everything out of my mind or else i'll keep wasting my time thinking about it all day and i just like to share the things that i read about or see on the internet, not caring whether it's to your concern or not.
i dont even know whether i annoy you by talking all day but i dont want to know your answer. just let me continue talking about everything to you. XD
plus I love that you're such an open-minded person, or maybe we just think the same way or something, but i just feel so comfortable talking to you all the time.

plus I'm acutally the type of person that stays quiet and doesnt talk much when i'm with a group of ppl. You will only hear me rambling on everything when i'm with one or two friends. and they need to be close friends that i trust. coz like what i always say, i have trust issues and i find it hard to get close to someone.


I love that you're a good shopping partner. We always shop until we're both really tired and we keep complaining but we just keep on shopping.
and i dunno whether i should be happy about how we are both so indecisive. hahahaha.
but seriously, the two of us can never make up our mind on what to eat. but who doesnt right? but i just feel like i have a harder time to decide on what to eat while i'm with you. but there are times where we help each other make decisions.

we have quite a lot of things in common i think. we are both Libras, and both are the bloodtype A, and weirdly, our mums' bday are just two days away from each other's. and we kind of have the same type of family background.
and how many pieces of the same clothing do we both have? LOL

most importantly, i'm really happy that you didnt leave A-Levels. maybe you would have regretted it but you wont be able to imagine how much i appreciated you for not leaving. what would have i done without you around? hehehehe

I love how we always say that we'll be forever alone. who knows? maybe we'll really be. XD
but dont worry, we'll be two lonely (& rich) aunties who have each other for company. and we would go shopping everyday. LOL

and like you mentioned one day... we wont have so many chances to meet each other after we graduate.
just plainly mentioning that makes me miss you alr. tbh, i'm gonna miss you a whole lot. you're one of a kind. XD but really, i'll need to find someone else to talk to after we graduate.

hmmm what else...... oh i love that you notice stuff about me that sometimes i dont even realise.

OH OH OH AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING! i'm finally announcing it on my blog~
WE'LL BE GOING TO MACAU TGT~~~~~~ WOOHOO~~~
AHHHH~~~ it's so exciting~~~ Cant wait! but before we go, i need to save enough money first.
next June~ it'll be here real soon and we're gonna have so much fun.
anyone wondering how we got so crazy to suddenly decide to go to Macau tgt?
and if i rmb correctly, WangFu's Wes is the reason we're going on this trip HAHAHAHAHA
so the story goes like this.... We were doing accounts tgt in my room and suddenly we mentioned Wes (i think) and we were wondering whether he is a Taiwanese or a hongkonger and she mentioned that she'll like to go to Hongkong again and i said i wanted to go there again too because it's such a beautiful place to visit.
Then i mentioned how i dont like going to tourist sites, and would just like to visit the city and she felt the same way too.
So i rmb-ed that AirAsia was having their big sale so we quickly turned on my laptop and went to check the prices and the tickets were really cheap! And the time period for the tickets were perfect for us coz we've finished A Level by then and that day was the last day to book the tickets! We were meant to go on this trip! We initially planned to go to Taiwan but we then found out that Macau's airfare was the cheapest! So we just booked our tickets!
We were both so excited that the thought of asking our parents for permission never crossed our minds until we needed a credit card to pay for the tickets. roflmao
In the end, everything worked out! and we'll be on a plane to Macau next June~ but there's definitely a lot of planning to do before we go but let's get over with our exams first before we worry about that.


i guess that's all i have to say for now.

lastly, all i want to say is THANK YOU. ♥ ♥ ♥

time to be 18

It was my 18th birthday last Sunday (30 September). It's weird, being 18.
Do you rmb the days when you wished you were 18 and all grown up?
I never imagined it to be like this though. I thought i would be taller. hehehe.
Instead i'm tanner than i used to be, which i hate so much! I should have bought that SPF50 sunscreen while it was on sale the other day. My SPF30 one doesnt seem to be helping.
And i thought when i turned 18, my skin condition would be better or at least more stable (is this the right word to describe your skin condition?), but my skin condition is still bad. TT___TT
and i finished my AcneFree cleanser which i love, and i dunno whether i'll ever get the chance to use it again because it's still not available in Msia. Plus, i still have three bottles of cleansers waiting to be used, and on average, one bottle lasts almost a year and that means the next time i'll be needing a new cleanser would be 3 years later??!!! LOL I have a thing for facial products, i buy more than what i need. I'm sure i'll use them halfway and if they dont show any good effects, then i'll give them to someone else.

So, back to me being 18! I can actually drive now! I still cant believe it and i seriously cant imagine myself in the driver's seat. fyi, i havent tried driving my mum's car since i got my license, i'm such a coward.
I also can finally change my bank account to an "adult" account! I can finally do online banking~~~ Now my mum doesnt need to know where i spend my allowances on. hehehe
Talking about allowances, i still dont dare to ask my mum for this month's allowance because i feel so guilty for spending so much money during the last two months.
I should punish myself and let myself suffer a bit. LOL

Thinking about it, although this year has seemed to fly pass before we had the time to appreciate it more, but I feel like this year, so many things has happened and so much has changed. And January seems so far away alr~ What happened in January again? It somehow feels like it was two years ago or something. The next thing we know, Christmas will over and that means a whole new year is about to start again.
W O W. what's the meaning and purpose of life again?

Anyways, being 18 just reminds me that i should learn to be more independent and face my problems bravely. I believe 18 will be a great age to live and enjoy. More changes and challenges to face. I'm truly scared and excited at the same time. More scared actually. Let's hope reality will be better than my imaginations and expectations.

my hair looks so brownish in the sun~

 outfit of the day~

 right after the fanmeet~

 it was a tiring but a really fun day!

i forgot to say this in the APink post.... I didnt had any problems with withdrawals after the fanmeet, instead i started missing Beast... TT____TT The fanmeet just reminded me of the good times of meeting and going crazy over Beast with Zoe and i just felt so emo... And started listening to Beast songs until the moment i fell asleep. and tmr, Beast will be leaving for Japan for 3 weeks. I should be happy because that means less updates on Beast and i can focus on my studies. but i'm gonna miss all the updates and photos....

 THANK YOU~~~~~ Hy for this beautiful present~ Luckily this year history didnt repeat itself and you managed to buy the present you planned to~ hahaha ppl who didnt know what happened last year can go read my old blog posts. XD

This purse has its story too~ I saw it in Padini and wanted to buy it about two months ago i think, and it was the LAST one! but i didnt let myself buy it in the end and wanted to ask my bro to buy it for me which in the end didnt happen but Hy bought it~~~

I dont really care about purse sizes, to me, the colour and is the most important thing!

and this purse (as you can see) is in hot pink~~~ i should have edited the photo so that the colour would look more obvious.

 my lonely cake from Secret Recipe, it wasnt what i wanted but still, it was chocolate. 

 and the precious card/wishes from all amazing ppl~ And thanks again to Hy for collecting all the wishes from everyone and compiling them tgt~

and Hy, dont worry about it not looking good, it's in PINK! that's more than good~~~

 all the wishes~ which i will not share with you guys. XD

and this.... I had to ask Hy only to understand what it was, at first before i asked her, i thought it had something to do with Pokemons! LOL coz you know how Ash or any Pokemon trainer would yell "Pikachu, I choose you!" and throws their pokeball and their Pokemon would appear and i thought that was how they meant it to be. HAHAHA

but they basically just chose who they thought was the most handsome member in Beast.

and i choose to show doojoon's photo because Doojoon is just so handsome. sorry Dongwoon, but you're still 손남신~~~

Lastly, before i go off to finish up my personal statement, a note to myself (just for myself, so that after a few years, when i look back at this post, it'll be a great memory): 

Rachel (it's weird calling my name hehehe), before you know it, college would be over and all of these worries would be gone and you'll realize that it was a total waste of time and energy to worry so much on every little thing. Believe in yourself and have faith that everything will be okay just like always. So much have happened this year and the year will be over soon, so before you regret anything, appreciate every moment you spend with your love ones and also Beast hehe. because I'm really scared my predictions will become reality and very soon, you wont have that much time to spend with them anymore. Dont be scared, everything will be okay and everything will work out. maybe not as planned but it'll work out. Dont waste your time and life as an 18 year-old, work hard and play hard. Thrive and enjoy at the same time. Just have faith and just work hard. lastly, FIX YOUR SLEEPING SCHEDULE. I've been wanting to do this for so long but i just.... cant.... TT____TT

okay. that's all for now. bye. 

A Pink~ ♥

So.... On my 30th September (last Sunday), which was also my bday~, Hy and I went for A Pink's Hi-5 session that was held at The Butter Factory!!!!

They finally came to Malaysia~~~

And i am soooo happy to be able to see them in person! No doubt, they are just as beautiful in person as they are on screen.

I'm also really proud to say that i've been their fan even before they debuted! I still rmb the day their MV was released. It was Ren You's birthday party and during those days, the internet was hella slow so i let it load on 1080p while i went to his party then when i reached home after that, it was waiting for me!

I rmb how happy i was for the girls for having a successful debut with an amazing song - I Don't Know- which is one of my all-time favourite song! And the MV is just so pretty~

I've always loved girly things, and they were the epitome of girly. I rmb wishing to be a fashion designer so that i could remake all their promotion dresses because they were so beautiful while lacey dresses.

And with A Pink News, they made me love them even more! Their playful and unique characters especially Bomi~ and Chorong! And Naeun has always been my favourite from the beginning because she is just so gorgeous~ 

Now, more than a year since they debuted, and i'm loving every member. I grew to like Namjoo a lot more because she showed so much improvement in both confidence and skills. She definitely has the talent.

And Eunji, main vocalist~ and now actress! I cant wait for exams to be over so that i can watch Reply 1997!

Some photos that i took on that day!

 the placard i made for Bomi~ it's not suppose to be yellow! Stupid camera cant show the colour. it's suppose to be neon yellow. and i couldnt stand the placard being plain, so a added a touch (well, more than a touch) or sparkles and glitters to it!

And when i Hi-5-ed Bomi, i showed her my placard and she said, "Pang Pang~" which are the two words above! AND I CAUGHT IT ON VIDEO!!!! 

HAHAHAHAHA~ but i cant show it to you guys because i was in a hurry to change my camera's mode to video and i forgot to zoom out so.... there's nothing to see, only the sound is available.

after the incidence of Dongwoon telling me he loves me too at SG's Hi-5 session, i never want to miss out on video-ing important moments!

 Naeun's placard was more simple... and on that day, i didnt get to chance show her placard because i only had enough hands to hold Bomi's. 

and in the bg of the photo is Naeun~ I was watching A Pink News season 3 the night before the fanmeet.

 the time has finally come! to meet A PINK~ ♥

 just so you know, my camera's quality isnt very good so these photos had been edited to look like this. without editing, there's no point uploading these photos.

 all i wanted was to take a photo of the 7 girls tgt but failed.... couldnt fit them all in one frame.

 their make-up looked really nice up close~ their skin was perfect too! and their hair~

yesss~ a perfect photo of the gorgeous Son Naeun~ 

i'm so proud of this photo~~~

she looks so sweet.

 another good photo~ of cutie Bomi! 

she had so many fans~ so many fans were shouting for her and she waved at us~

 and i kept wanting to take a nice photo of the beautiful and sweet maknae, Hayoung, but failed too. it's either my camera couldnt focus, or she moved. her smile was so wide throughout the whole fan meet~ 

 time to say goodbye..... :'(

although the session was really short, but i was really happy to see the girls~

 we were to late when we rushed to the back-door, they already alighted their van.... but we caught a few glances at them when they opened the door once or twice.

 a few photos of their photobook~

 she is just so beautiful~

I wished i could blog more on this post but it's 3:11am right now and i should be in bed!
I wanted to do this post earlier but the editing photos process took quite some time and i didnt want to leave it till tmr, as i still have another post i want to blog on tmr~
please let me have the time..... i still have so much to do.....
lastly, A PINK JJANG~~~~~ I wish them the best in their career and life! They are still so young and i really hope they do well in this path because they have the talent to make it big.