Ended up lazing around...

I woke up in the morning feeling... good. Surprisingly good. As i normally feel...not so good in the morning.
I woke up and thought that it would be a busy day but ended up that i'm really free.
So, initially my plan for today was, wake up and study, then go for Taylor's registration, rush back in time for jazz classes, then church in the evening.
but ended up eating breakfast in front of the computer, then flipped through magazines. then when i noticed the time, it was time to go out ady.
And my uncle asked so many questions at the registration so by the time i reached molek, it was alr 2.40pm.
so no point going for jazz anyway... went home and rmbed mummy was going to a wedding dinner with Thaniel.
That means no mass for today.
then i asked my mum what would i have for dinner since she wont be in and Nigel is out.
She then asked me to follow her to the dinner. I really dont want to go, but it's either i go, or no dinner.
so... no choice but to go!
Since i'm so lazy today, i cant even think of what to wear....
later i'll just stand in front of my closet and simply pick something out.


I have been lazy to blog lately... I have some stuff to blog about but just...plain lazy.
So... it just hit me recently that I will be in college next year.
Not that i never knew i would be in college but it just always seemed so far away until recently.
And i think i've made the right choice not to worry about it earlier, becoz worrying never helps, thinking a lot doesnt help either.
I just knew that somehow all things would work out.
maybe not as i planned or not what i always wanted,and maybe it would never be as i wanted it to be, but at least it worked out well.  I consider myself lucky i guess.
And to those that are still lost like how i was before or anyone that are going through a hard time, all that i can say is to take it step by step. somehow and someday things will work out.
Like i said, it may not always be what you planned it to be or what you always wanted but just dont lose hope, becoz you wont be able to move on without hope.
I have to have hope in the things i want to do but cant, in the dreams i want to fulfill but cant, bcoz i know i'm still young, and still need to listen to what elders say and follow directions. I just dont have the full right to make my own decisions yet, there's still so much to consider besides myself. not like *cough* someone *cough* at home that only thinks about himself!
but who knows? mayb things will turn out better than i wanted them to be. unexpected things bring unexpected results. and most importantly, dont have too high expectations. one of the principles of my life.
and i just got lectured and nagged by my uncle the other day, I may not like or even hate whatever he said, but they are all the truth i've been avoiding to face.
I'm the best at avoiding stuff. Even the smallest stuff like veggies.


needing to move out of home and live on my own without my mum and uncle around will be scary.
but i'm most grateful that i wont need to do it all alone as unnie will be there with me~
bcoz to be honest, when i'm alone and it gets too scary i'll seriously cry out, even if it's in front of a lot of ppl.
it's not gonna be easy next year, barely thinking of it alr makes me want to lock myself in my room and never come out.
but it's the the process of growing up and i need to face it all. i know it's gonna be hard in the beginning, but i hope i'll get used to it soon.
i'm the type of person that gets used to a new enviroment quite easily and i dont think i get homesick easily so i'll be fine.
the only thing i'm scared of is my studies. I normally need to be alone in my room in order to really concentrate and study, everything will be different next year. I hope i'll do well. I must!



i guess that's all with my rant.
wont be able to blog much in the near future.
not many days left before SPM. T_T
have to get pass this obstacle before i can start thinking of others. step and step.
I alr cant wait for the holidays~ >__<

Joy In Living

Joy in living comes from having fine emotions, trusting them, giving them the freedom of a bird in the open.
Joy in living can never be assumed as a pose, or put on from the outside as a mask.
People who have this joy do not need to talk about it; they radiate it. They just live out their joy and let it splash its sunlight and glow into other lives as naturally as bird sings.
We can never get it by working for it directly. It comes, like happiness, to those who are aiming at something higher. It is a byproduct of great, simple living. The joy of living comes from what we put into living, not from what we seek to get from it.



I got this from my book 'Light Music From Soul' but i dont know who to credit it to coz it didnt mention...
anyhow, hope you get something out of it~ =)

2ndB2STLYear

It's BEAST's 2nd Anniversary! 

16.10.2011

It has been two amazing years. 

although i wasnt there from day 1, which is one of my biggest regrets, but it's the effort that counts right?

These 6 amazing, talented guys deserve all they own today.

They've gone through so much to reach where they are today.

gaining fans everyday with their own uniqueness.

I'm so proud of them. Proud that they are always so humble and never forgotten their roots.

I wanted to upload more photos, but it's too hard to choose! so i'll just blog a bit then.

I love all their voices. 

I love Yoseob's the most. Listening to his voice is the best way to go to sleep.

His voice makes you concentrate on his voice and his voice only. 

it's so soothing and.... just amazing.

I love Dongwoon's voice too. But he hasnt had the chance to do a full cover of a song yet.

He has to make a cover soon!!! 

I love watching Beast's cover of Despite Holding On. 

Dongwoon's voice is just beautiful in it. I still watch it when i cannot sleep at night.

and I cut the intro of You of Dongwoon singing just to replay it non stop when i'm in a bad mood. hehe

And Hyunseung's voice. There's something special about his voice that i love, but i dunno how to exactly describe it.

Doojoon's voice~ is just so nice~~~ I love to listen to When The Door Closes just to listen to more of his and Dongwoon's voice~ 

and Kikwang's~ I love his voice in their cover of Good Man. But what i love most of Kikwang is his eye smile~~~ >__<

lastly, Junhyung's voice is just full of swag. XD

i still love to hear him sing although he doesnt sing much. I love waiting for his part in Oasis just to hear him sing. But now that part is Dongwoon's part when they perform it.

But Junhyung is the best at rapping. 

I love his raps in Clenching a Tight Fist, On Rainy Days, Fiction and basically most of Beast's songs.

as for Beast's songs...

I love each and everyone of them.

some more than others, but i love all of them.

every song has something unique that i love about.

as for my favourite song.... it's hard to choose one...

it'd be Break Down, On Rainy Days, Fiction, Clenching A Tight Fist, You, Beautiful, Oasis, Yet.....

and the list goes on.... XD

I just went though a lot of Beast's old videos and performance, reminiscing every precious memory...

all those good times~

watching their performance always puts a smile on my face.

I still have a lot of fancams i've missed out on, I will need to catch up on those after SPM.

and I will listen to all of their songs before i sleep today.

It has been a happy day. 

I really hope that I will be able to celebrate another 100 or 1000 anniversaries with BEAST~ HAHAHA

but seriously, i cant imagine my life without Beast.

Like i always say, BEAST = LIFE.

They will always always be the no.1 group in my heart~

This can go on forever...

I'm not really that good with words and i cant really express how much i love Beast with words.

you guys should read through my mind everyday to see how much i love them! HAHAHA

This photo is from ytd's Asia Song Festival.

Proud to be a b2uty. k-b2uties were so awesome. really wish i could be there.

the atmosphere must have been amazing.

makes me miss Beast so much~ I want to see them in person again~~~~

shout fanchants with all other b2uties~ >_<

The most amazing guys.

I will love Beast forever and ever. 

I will love Beast to infinity and beyond~

Appreciate them with all my heart. and I know they love B2uties too.

seeing them tweet makes me happy all the time.

seeing new photos makes me go crazy~

2 years is not a long time, they still have a long journey to go, and i'll be going on this journey with them.

Havent been blogging for sometime... i've been busy...  and lazy... sigh...

so since i have some time now before i go for mass later, i'll just briefly blog about random stuff that happened recently.

Last Saturday I started assisting Pei Fen at ATS teaching children's jazz class, both Primary Class and Grade 1 class.

Today is my second week. It's quite interesting seeing how different each kid is.

Some are really good in expressing themselves while some just lose concentration very easily.

And plus they are all girls, only one boy in Primary Class, the girls love to look at the mirrors.

They are going to take jazz exams soon, just like me, so they cant look at the mirrors but they still always peek to see their reflection.

They are all so cute~ some very polite and shy while one was really rude. but she's still a kid so i believe she'll change soon.

The Grade 1 class doesnt really need me, they are all so good. And they love dancing solo.

In my class (grade 4)'s case, we always dont want to dance solo. LOL

and during last week's jazz class, i fell while dancing our set routine and i kinda sprained my left ankle. T_T

It wasnt very painful but very uncomfortable. I dont really know how to describe the feeling.

and I was really scared. I'm used to muscle pain, coz i've been having muscle pains ever since i was in the track team in primary school, but this is the first time hurting my ankle so i was really scared.

It started swelling when i got home but i couldnt be sure whether it was a major injury. 

So the next day before i went for tuition i went to the clinic to check how serious it was.

When i showed the doctor my leg, he said it was very swollen already. but since i could still walk, that means it didnt affect the bones.

He gave me some medicine, which i just finished taking just now, so i feels a lot better today.

still a bit swollen and uncomfortable though.

I just need to be extra careful from now on. 

and this month is the rosary month, so we've been going to other houses for rosary prayers. 

it's the only time i get to meet and talk with my church friends like Dominic, Norman, Stephanie and others.

Yesterday we went to another friend's house and i talked to Daniel. I think i havent talked so much to him since our Labuan trip two years ago! 

And Auntie Vincentia just came back from Japan and said she bought me a birthday present! She asked me to get it from her later at church~~~~ cant wait!!!

and since today we dont have a house to go for rosary, I asked mummy to take me for korean food for dinner!

she promised that she'll bring me there for my birthday but until today only we are free.

And today my whole family went to visit my grandpa at my grandaunt's house at Skudai. He's been sick for sometime, he said he has chest pains. plus he's very old ady, if i'm not wrong, he's 85.

he's hearing and eye sight are also not that good anymore. 

But he still remembers us. I think the last time i met him was 3 or 4 years ago.

we were supposed to go to Kuantan to celebrate his birthday earlier this year with all our other relatives but in the end didnt manage to go. So here are the photos~

Surprises~

This is a post for birthday presents~ XD
I really want to thank everyone who gave me presents! Coz i havent been buying anything for a long time, mummy hasnt been buying me anything either so it's really nice to see some new stuff around my room. =)
and one more present i got today! My friends paid for my dinner we ate at Kinsahi on Friday! Thanks, you guys didnt need to.

Happy belated bday to me. I dont want to be 17.

1stly, the present i received the earliest from Amy and JiaWen~

I will have to find an event to wear these to!

The biggest card i've received ever! from Renyou, Kakleong and Lunchok.

what's the point of the piano actually??? XD

three different chocolates from Karyap. I've only eaten one of them in the macoca pack.

but i know there are all delicious. they are chocolate. MY FAV~~~~

from Nigel. although oil control films arent that good for the skin that's why i've stopped using them but thx anyways~

Nutella from Sara~~~ Thx so much for this!!! <3

but that means i'm back to eating bread for breakfast. I've been eating eggs for breakfast for the past few weeks.

mint chocolates from Junjie~ this just makes me feel bad for not giving her anything on her bday. :(

it's alr open in the photo coz i shared it in school and also with mummy coz we didnt have lunch that day.

and the note Junjie wrote~ I specially wanted to upload it becoz it's soooo sweet~

angpau~ >__<

next is the present from Hueyying unnie~~~ the box is really cute.

when i opened the box, i first saw this with Beast chibis on it!

then this!!! the photo doesnt do justice. the colour isnt like this. 

thx so much unnie~~~ I really love it~

and the card from unnie~~~ I noticed most of the photos i'm wearing the same tshirt =__=

and the back of it! Beast's Fiction promotional photos~~~~

long and sweet msg~ Love you so much unnie~ Thx so much!

 and I'm so happy about my relationship status -- MARRIED THE SON DONGWOON!!!!

Son Male God is forever mine~~~~ HAHAHAHAHA XD

next is a present i received today~

I was so happy when i saw it on my table when i came home from school~

I've been anticipating it~

It's from Zoe and Nicky~ thx so much you guys~

I really cant wait to meet up with them soon~ But i think i'll only have time after SPM... T_T 

but time will pass without me noticing, so look on the bright sight!

It's really pretty~ I was just talking to Hy the other day about wanting a charm bracelet! 

and i'm so happy that it has an R on it!

I've always been unlucky coz everytime i want to find a necklace or bracelet with my initial on it, it's ALWAYS sold out! so now i finally have one! Thx again Zoe and Nicky~

That's all of it.

Mummy gave me an angpau too but i dunno where to spend it on.

I'm still waiting for CUBE to release Beast's concert dvd.

I dont dare touch my money before i buy it coz i know it's gonna cost a bomb.

and mummy said she wanted to bring me out for dinner but i dunno when that will happen as we wont be free for the next few weekends.... T_T

was supposed to go last Saturday but ended up eating with Aunty Pat's family.

i was sitting next to Dominic and i ate so much more than him then he said, Wah, you can really eat hor... 

I guess now i know why he's so damn skinny.

ciao for now!

I'm 17!

I still dont want to accept the fact that I'm 17... HAHAHAHA it's just weird. 17 used to seem so far away...
I'm 17. officially. weird.
okay... skip the awkwardness and blog about my bday!
from morning! I woke up at 6am without the alarm clock! MIRACLE!
I wanted to stay up still midnight the night before, but ended falling asleep with my phone in my hand.
woke up to lots of sms-es from friends~ replied one by one while waiting for the bus.
and the weather suddenly changed and it was so windy and once i got on the bus, it started pouring like crazy! and i was kinda late for school but i guess it's normal to be late on rainy days.
Hy they all were alr waiting for me, like i knew they were gonna be!
I think i was smiling the whole day~
I got a huge card from Hy~ (photos of presents will be in the next post!)
then i opened the present she gave me and was really surprised! Thx so much unnie~~~~~~
and i got a HUMUNGOUS card from Renyou, Kakleong and Lunchok! it was really big and pink! if it was in hot pink, i think i would go crazy! i really appreciate their effort!
then Karyap gave me the chocolates he bought~
and i also received chocolates from Junjie~ which i ended up sharing half of it with friends!
oh! and classmates sang a birthday song  for me! which was kinda embarrassing for me, i hate it coz i dunno how to react to it. I dont actually like to be the centre of attention. but thanks anyway~
we played Monopoly Deal in class again! had so much fun! almost all chinese were surrounded around our table! they kept doing sound effects for our game. LMAO
then time to go home, for me and Karyap only though, since we didnt have chinese class.
and i didnt want to take my huge bday cards onto the bus, so Karyap helped me take it back and gave it back to me when i fetched him to KSL.
two of us reached KSL at almost 2.30pm. I was hungry so i bought a cone pizza. then we walked around looking at stuff while waiting for others to reach.
When all reached, time for karaoke!!! although KBOX is cheap for students but service not that good, but what do you expect right? I still like RedBox and Da Ge Xing more! Ruohyee needs to pass her driving test so that we can go sing~~~~~
I was really sad that they only had two of Beast songs.... T_T
I had fun though~ I hope others had fun too~
after that, we went to for dinner at Kinsahi~ but spent a long time deciding and finding a place to eat. LOL
after eating, we played Murderer! laughed a lot again.
after dinner, went walking around.  I initially had a list of things i wanted to buy but felt bad that everyone had to follow me around so gave up. next time bah....
but i finally got to eat chocolate strawberry crepe~~~~ yummy~~~~ I dont usually spend money on food, only on birthdays i guess.
then, ended up suddenly stopping halfway while walking and talked and laughed non-stop about stupid stuff. and took photos~~~
At about 9pm, Nigel fetched us girls back while the guys took a bus home.
Amy, Hy and I camwhored like crazy in the backseat! LOL the camera flash kept flashing non-stop HAHAHAHA~ and we laughed everytime we looked at the photos~
reached home at 10pm. was really tired but i was really happy!
i want to thank EVERYONE who wished me and rmb-ed my bday~~~ I cant list out all! but you know who you are!
and how i wished that all my friends and family could celebrate with me! all friends! primary school friends, church friends, secondary school friends, cousins and other friends~~~~ That would be really awesome, but kinda impossible since it would be awkward.
all in all, it was one of my best bdays ever!!!

PHOTOS!!!!! (LOTS OF THEM)

getting ready to go out. my hair still nice and tidy. initially wanted to wear my white dress but looked weird.

at KBOX!

unnie and I~~~

my dinner at Kinsahi~ I havent eaten so much for a long time!

the suggestion form that the guys had fun playing with. LOL

NAMO LMAO XD

my chocolate strawberry crepe!

photos with everyone!

with my dearest unnie Hueyying~~~~ <3

with Amy! <3

with Junjie~ <3 I feel bad for not talking much to her. 

With ShiBiYan Ruohyee! <3 loved her shoes! (although you cant see it LOL)

ruohyee and HulZi!

the biggest smile from HulZi! <3

with Jiawen~~~ <3

With Bryan!

with Karyap. who the hell suggested he doing this??? but the first thing i noticed was my eye smile! >_<

with KakLeong. i purposely wanted to post this so show how small sized i look beside him!

he standing in a way so that he would be the same height as me. LOL

with Jackson. better to seat down when taking photo with him. he's wayyyyy too tall!

with YoongKang~~

the all my girlfriends~~~ <3 love you guys!!! ruohyee so bad! hulzi so cool man!

stupid Karyap seating on the floor in public. he laughed until he had to seat on the floor. =__=

with the guys~~~

group photo!

those who dont understand the photo. it's an inside joke that only we know about. LMAO 

spot the odd one out then mayb you'll know. XD

selca time in the car~~~ sry if it's too much! but had to upload each and everyone for unnie!

this is supposed to be us acting innocent.

acting fierce. Amy looks really fierce.

*wink*

the both ladies beside me fail at winking HAHAHA

*pout*

I look so funny. XD

 we arent cute and fail at acting cute too. T_T

it's supposed to be 930. but ended up 039. =__=

supposed to be dou4 ji1 yan3.

 once again. both ladies beside me fail at doing dou ji yan.

FAIL!!!! LOL AMY!

*peace*

 show all your teeth!!!

 rocker!

this is just weird.

rocked once again. but kinda... weird again...

puffy cheeks~ >_<

smile~~~

we had such good mo4 qi4! had such a fun time in the car~ HAHAHA

ended with dazing off~ LOL

finally reached home after a super tiring day!

once again. a big THANK YOU~~~~~