sixth-sense

jsyk, i wanted to upload some photos but blogspot isnt working. T_T
i guess i'll upload them some other time. but today i have something i want to blog about.
I noticed that i have a quite accurate sixth sense.... ?
I've known about it for sometime, a few years back mayb but i never ever really admitted at it coz i just thought it was some weird feeling that gets to me sometimes.
but these two days just made me prove it that i really have an accurate sixth sense.
so ytd, i had this feeling in school, it's kinda like.... anxiousness? i dont quite know how to describe it.
it's just a feeling that makes me nervous and anxious, just uncomfortable.
and i somehow knew something was going to happen.
i didnt know what. or when. or whether it was something good or bad. but just something.
so i just practically waited for something to happen.
I reached home from school, still nothing happened.
i took a shower then..................
Hueyying called me saying, "@#$%^&*( i couldnt hear what she was saying at the beginning)"
i then made out, "are you online? Are you online?"
I was like, wth is happening, should i be scared or what. then i said, "not yet. why?"
the she said, "JUNHYUNG AND HARA ARE DATING LEH!!!!!"
i was like, ............"OMG HARA?!"
okay, i cant rmb anything else i said.
i just rmb myself jumping aroung my room while the i on the laptop and i just kept repeating,"OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!"
I cant say i wasnt shocked but I was really happy about the news! They're like the perfect couple.
they looked so cute tgt in those photos! (which i wanted to upload but cant. )
Hueyying and I wished that they would be tgt forever, get married and have babies! and their children would be so gorgeous. HAHAHAHAHA~ JunHara~<3
I am truly happy for them. Hara is a lucky girl!
Hara is just so pretty~~~~~ with her big dolly eyes, small face, long silky hair and that super small waist of hers.
And i really want to say that i kinda guessed it was coming but not this soon!
there were all those hints here and there. it was kinda obvious but i just couldnt bring myself to believe in any of it.
but looking back to those hints Junhyung gave after seeing the news, the mystery was finally solved. we now know what it was all about.




next, back to my sixth sense thing.
Today, i had that feeling again. had it the whole day in school.
kept making me feel uncomfortable. but i just waited for something to happen.
had piano class and tuition and still nothing happened.
plus i still had those weird feelings during tuition.
then when i came home, ate a bit, on the com then received a call.
ironic right? another call but from a different person.
so something happened. and it's kinda occupying my mind with it.
it's not reallly good news this time.
so i know those feelings dont always mean good stuff will happen.




so.... i think i can officially state that i have an accurate sixth sense! XD




and today we had no classes most of the time in school.
so we basically talked and played.
and rouhyee kept saying i keep smiling all out of a sudden all the time.
i've always noticed it but i cant really control it.
happy memories, stuff keep passing through my mine all the time.
i always daydream during sejarah class. and when i notice myself smiling, i immediately hope that no one noticed.
they'll totally think i'm crazy! who the hell smiles like an idoit during sejarah class?!
this happens all the time. mostly in the morning though.
when i'm on my way to school, i just look out the window of my van and start thinking and i smile out of a sudden.
and when i realise it, i'm almost reaching school.
this is just a random thought. there isnt really a point in this, i just thought about it.



I still have some stuff i want to blog about but it's kinda late now.

update

Havent been updating my blog for a while.
everytime i had free time, i'd spend in on youtube or tumblr.
and since all my files went missing, i spend a way lot more time on tumblr saving pics.
i dont have much to update on.
only that my Uncle has came back from his Miri trip on thursday.
we had our parents-teachers day ytd. and my mum is totally pissed at my bro's results.
overall, it's been a fun week.
although i know my bad luck came back and haunt me.
i knew my good luck would finish someday.
i hope i'll be lucky next week~
my pimples need to do me a favour and disappear before next Saturday!
finally, the day i've been waiting for~ plainly thinking about it makes my heart skip a beat!
i'm going see BEAST~~~~~~
and Zoe just sms-ed me and asked about how i was going.
i asked her whether i could go with her and her friends and she said yes!
i actually feel a bit paiseh and but's better than going on my own.
Nigel doesnt seem keen on follwing anyway. my mom just scolded him for being useless.
so i'm really excited about it~
i dont have much too say anymore..... so just enjoy some random pics.

at ATS. we're on a secret mission. we're doing something really awesome. XD

a few weeks back, thaniel and dominic they all went for PAG camp!
so we went to cheer for them during talent-night!
all the skits were nice and hilarious.
i still rmb my PAG Camp.
although i hate going for camps, i really learnt and grew from attending them
i've never liked going for camps, i've always been forced to go.
and i'll complain to my mum and say that i dont want to go the night before camp,
and my mum will always say, "you never know, mayb you'll enjoy it."
but i never really enjoy myself.
i've always been kinda left out.
coz everyone that attend the camp are alr in groups of friends, and i..... T_T
so i'm really glad i dont need to attend these kind of church camps anymore.

this photo is suppose to be a "serious" photo. haha
Aunty Pat said she is really happy to see us kids all being happy tgt.
and after so many years we've been friends, and although we dont meet up much, we're all still close.
notice that the number of girls are always less than boys?
so i always have no choice but to hang out with Dominic they all, but they are so fun to be with.

Daniel was the clown this year!

Thaniel acting as "Paul Lambert" in his group's skit.

everyone is saying that he is starting to look like Nigel.
does he? i dont think so.

cute Sebastian acting as Tarzan. LOL

Dominic acted as the "iBible" which takes a long time to load.
you can see Kim laughing behind. it was hilarious.






went out with Ruohyee, Hueyying and Junjie after school on Wednesday. and was nearly late for piano and nearly didnt make it to malay tuition becoz of Nigel.

super yummy ice cream from Baskin Robins.
but i really need to stop wasting money on food! need to save for much more important stuff!

Yang Yoseob

I've always loved Yang Yoseob, but recently after those stupid rumours about Beast going around, i've started to love Yoseob so much more.
and also because of Immortal Song 2, i got to know more about Yoseob and hear his amazing golden voice more.
the thing about him that i love is that he is not only talented with a good voice but he sings with feelings. He can make all the audience teary after he finishes his performance.
I know not everyone is going to listen to the videos i post of Yoseob singing as they dont care.
I'm the same. If it's something i'm not interested in, no matter how good you tell me it is, i wont give a shit about it.
But i dont care, i'm gonna preach about Yang Yoseob everywhere i go.
Yang Yoseob, a 21 year old guy that has been a trainee for 6-7 years before debuting with Beast.
He's gone through so much hardships to reach where he is today.
I think he started being a trainee at 12 or 13 i guess and his mum didnt approve of this dream of his.
but he promised her that he will hard work and made a promise with her.
In the end, she let him chase his dream although she hated the idea of it and knew it would not be easy for her precious son.
He almost gave up half way. He left his agency company one day and thought of giving up but then a song a him an inspiration to keep on going.
almost a year or two before Beast debuted, he was AJ aka Kikwang's back-up dancer.
he said that period of his life was the hardest compared to not having enough money and needing to sleep in the practice room or sauna becoz he didnt have enough money to go back to his dorm.
and imagine being away from home for so long. It must've been really hard his him and his family.
Despite all these hard times, he's still a humble, hard working and a good son that always thinks about his family. and i respect these people the most, coz family is the most important.
he's polite and always knows what is right and what is wrong and always tell B2utys to be good and not hate on others.
He's like the perfect boyfriend ever. <3
and besides that, despite all the wounds, hurt, worries and burden he buries himself in, he still can be the most cheerful person and the cutest person on earth!
I can go on with this forever. so i think i'll stop here and post videos.
these are the songs i play non-stop on my itunes when i want to relax.
Yoseob's voice is my favourite voice. It's soothing and perfect. one in a million.

this is the 1st song he sang on Immortal Song 2 that touched everyone's heart.
trust me, listen to it. although you wont understand a word of it but you'll still hear something in it.
he sang this for his mum. he said that he had wanted to sing this song for 9 years but never got the chance to.


this is the song that i mentioned above, the song he heard on the way home when he nearly decided to give up being a singer. he sang it perfectly.



This is a challenge song in Immortal Song 2. every contestant had to sing a song from a legendary band called Boohwal.
so Yoseob sang his own version of it that suited his voice perfectly. all those falsettos~ loving it!








this is the reason why every time i feel like giving up on something or even simply just feeling down, i think of Beast.
I know that a lot people think fangirls are crazy and why be so obsessed over guys that dont even know you exist?!
but i think it's becoz we are so stressed and so emotional all the time that kpop is the only thing that keeps us sane.

BEAST gave me inspiration in so many ways.
and they wouldnt be so successful today if they didnt go through all those hardships.
espcially Yoseob. he deserves so much more! and i believe he'll get them.
he looks so weak all the time, getting sick all the time and worrying about the simplest things all the time.
Everytime i pray, i add them into my prayers and hope that they would have a happy life.
it isnt important to be successful, happiness is so much more important.

Fun Fun Fun

8.6.2011 (Wednesday) I went for a gathering with my primary school friends~
I had piano class right before it so i was rushing up and down,
and just when Zuoying called me and said he was outside my house, i was just in time.
In his car, there was alr ZhiGuan, SiEn, Yingqian, CaiLing and Jiayi.
after fetching me, we went to Da Ge Xing for ktv~
My first time at Da Ge Xing, they got quite a lot of kpop songs!
As usual, SiEn and Xujie started off with the singing.
then YingQian sang SNSD's songs! everybody said she became prettier becoz of SNSD.
she really is pretty~ and she knew the moves to SNSD's songs too! big fan.
then i normally dont sing, becoz i dunno most of the songs they choose.
then Zuoying came to sit beside me and asked me to choose songs.
i rejected at first. but then he kept asking so i choose Beast's and 2NE1's songs.
Then Zuoying kept making all of us laugh by singing funnily.

Me and CaiLing.

Yingqian and I before leaving for dinner.
we went to QingYe for steamboat.
I sat with Cailing, Xujie, Jinrong and Yongqin.
we just kept talking and talking.
and the smoke kept blowing in my face! hated it.
and Cailing was so good to keep cooking the food for me~
altgt we had 13 ppl i think.
i ate a lot of ice cream too. :)

Yingqian and I at Qingye.

After we were all full, we played a game called Who?What?Huh?
really fun and exciting. i was good at it though.
we sat in a circle to play and other ppl kept looking at us while we lmao and screamed and shouted.
we had a punishment too! that is to wear Cailing's ballet skirt.

first loser! JiaYi~~~
she was short so the skirt reached her ankle.

2nd loser! ShiEn!
He is so damn tall!!!!!
and the skirt reached his knees only!
so damn funny.
his punishment was to wear the skirt, stand on a chair and yell, "I AM SUPERMAN!"
LOL. XD

3rd loser! YongQin~~~~
her punishment was to wear the skirt, go on stage and do M字腿 dance! LOL
she suggested the punishment some more leh!

WOAH~ we were all laughing and shouting.
once again, everyone looked over.
that was our intention though.

then we had sparkling juice.
Yongqin brought a bottle and Xujie went into The Store to buy one.
you can see my nails in the photo above. haha.
i dunno who was so stupid to actually shake the bottle before popping the cork.
resulted in the sparkling juice exploding out, and we all screamed again and attracted everyone's attention. =_=''
we even yelled, "YAMSENG!!!"
everyone stared again. so damn enbarrassing man.....

lastly, group photo before leaving. :)
Zuoying drove me home. really need to thank him~~~

I finally recieved the photos that i took when i went to meet up to collect Beast's album~~~
the girl, Zoe, even edited the photos~ so sweet of her.
there was supposed to be one more b2uty but she left.
we should've all done Beast's peace sign....

I'm a lucky girl

I've really been lucky lately~ which makes me really happy~
except the fact that my mum keep bitching around lately.
but women always have their own problems, so i just forget about it after 5 minutes, no point holding a grudge on it.
and i know thsi luck would not be with me forever, bad luck is just around the corner, i can sense it.
when my pimples pop out, that's bad luck. :(
my skin condition has been quite good recntly~ better than how it used to be last year at least.
i'm guessing it's due to my facial cleanser~ i havent even went to find out whether it's sold in msia or SG.
so my luckiness would be described below~ XD

last wednesday, I had Malay tuition for 4 hours straight.
and once i reached there, i regretted for going.
but i just kept reminding myself about what i would get when tuition ends.
coz Nigel told me he would be going to Jusco so i asked him to buy me choc waffles as i knew that dinner wouldnt be nice.
and when tuition ended, he really brought it for me!
and he even bought me a cup of frap! i think there was a promotion at Starbucks or something.

I got a 2NE1 poster in YG mag~
my first ever 2ne1 poster~
I just watched their fancams from their perf in manilla,
and they are just such a amazing group with awesome songs.
i want to see them live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i got my new contact lens last week~
i kept trying to contact my friend that was supposed to sell me contact lens, but i couldnt.
and then the day after i ordered my lens online, she added me on fb.
i was like, wth?! fml.
but i'm really happy with my current lens~ super duper natural~

On Saturday i went to city square to meet up with some other B2uties to get my Fiction and Fact album~~~~
the girl named Zoe contacted me on friday and so luckily my mum wasnt in that day, she went to S'pore with her friends and didnt want to bring me along.
and my mum even stayed at Resort World VIP hotel room leh!
using branded shampoo, conditioner, and body soap in the hotel!
and eating over SGD1000 worth of dinner!!!! these rich tai tai!
okay, forget that.
so Nigel had the car and he fetched me to CS.
I found out when i talked to Zoe that she is also 17~
and she's going to Beast's s'pore fan meeting too!
so she said mayb i can tumpang her car that day, so that dont need to trouble my bro to follow me.
so i got my album and waited for a few more b2uties to come to collect theirs,
so that incase they want to exchange their free gift.
and we actually took a pic tgt, but Zoe didnt email it to me. :(
then after that, i left at 4pm and went to church with Nigel.
we reached extra early and had nth to do but sweat like hell. the weather is killing me.
we went to Sacred Heart church so i didnt know much ppl.
and most of the youths knew Nigel and they keep asking him,
"eh, Nigel, your sister ah?" pointing at me.
Nigel said, "ya. why?"
Them: "oh, you guys look a-like."
I know that if we dont say we're siblings, we look like a couple, coz i'm stick closely to my bro like super glue.
always been like that.

then after mass, we sent a few ppl to plentong before heading for dinner!
so damn hungry and thirsty~ we went to eat thai food again!
and i ordered my fav Red Ruby dessert again all for myself~yummy~

reached home. finally. and camwhored.
finally got my Fiction and Fact album~~~~

the cover is nice right???

aish.... cant see hyunseung in this pic, he looked really nice in the photo album~

the free gifts~
a postcard and three other cards.
i got the postcard with Dongwoon on it~

went through so much trouble to meet up just so that i could get an unfolded poster.
it's really beautiful~

my walls with all BEAST~
not all are up on the wall... i dont have enough space for all.

Dongwoon ♥

Today is 6.6.2011. Son Dongwoon's birthday~
to me, it's a day special day, so i spent some time to make this special post dedicated to him.
although he wont be able to see it, but after a few years, when i look back at this post, i'm sure i'll be lmao.
but seriously, if not becoz of him, my life would be so different right now.
he's is my ultimate bias.
although sometimes, it seems like Hyunseung is my ultimate bias, but no matter how much i like Hyunseung, Dongwoon will never drop down to number 2, becoz he's my first kpop bias.
so i'm just gonna blog about why i love him so so much~

i love it when he smiles, he face scrunches tgt so cutely.

He's chiseled face. i never get bored of his amazing good looks.
“宇宙男神” the photo's tag. i always laugh when i see it.

he's also getting more and more stylish everyday.
and he's getting more and more expensive too, looking at all the branded stuff he's wearing lately, t-shirts from Balmain and John Galliano.

okay. i know everybody is gonna call me a perv.
but Dongwoon keeps showing his abs to kill all of fangirls. and his moobs XD

I love him when he plays the piano.
and his blonde hair. I miss it.

he always have his shades on at the airport.
even his dad teases him about it.
he always look like a superstar with those shades, he is btw.

he's the maknae of BEAST and the cry baby at the same time.
he cried again today when they won on Inkigayo.

he's so good looking with those deep eyes, he says so himself too.
he also said he is charming. hehe.

he even said once before that he think he's sexy while drinking water, like wth? hahaha

good looking even before he debuted.

i love this hairstyle of his the most.
and BEAST members look the best in suits worn casually.
i'm glad they always dress like that nowadays.

Dongwoon is forever taking amazing selcas.
and always calling himself male god. and arab prince. hahaha

he's also a typical guy that plays online games, only that he actually invites fans to play with him.
such a fan service king. even Yoseob says so.

and i'll never forget the first time i saw him in person.
until today, i still cant believe that i actually touched him and he even talked to me!
talk as in saying, "LOVE YOU TOO~"
although he may never rmb it, but it means so much to a fangirl like me.

I miss his red hair too.
i'm still waiting for the day he dyes his hair red again.
but i hope when i go to their fan meeting this July, he keeps his current hairstyle.

*dies* forever so good looking.

he always like to act cute, but always looks too old for it. poor him.

and his puppy dog eyes~ which fangirl can resist that?! *__*

and Dongwoon is forever afraid of bugs.
and b2uties always laugh and tease him about it.
when i watch fancams of him being freaked out by bugs, i always hear huge laughter from fans.

and his jawline~ *squeal* super duper hawt.

and he's so tall~

and ytd i went to meet-up with another b2uty from JB to get my Fiction and Fact album,
and MYB2UTY (Beast's msia forum and also the place i ordered my album from),
they gave a free gift and i got Dongwoon on the postcard!
the other b2uties asked whether i wanted to exchange,
i saw someone having Hyunseung's and i was having a huge dilemma,
but in the end i chose to stay with my original one.
i'll blog more about the meet-up and album pics tmr~

just now i just finished baking my fav chocolate chip shortbread aka Dongwoon cookies!
i baked it last year during Dongwoon's bday too~ it's like a tradition. i havent chose a cookie to be Hyunseung cookie yet.
and then after that i'd have to choose a cookie to be Yoseob cookie and the list goes on.
and no doubt the shortbread is yummy~ :)

Dongwoon is such a sweet guy and i'll love him forever.
and also because of him, i'm worried that i'll be #foreveralone.... :(
I died when i watched this just now. I dunno how i'm still alive now.





i got to wake up early tmr to go to my mum's office to work. :(
all becoz Nigel is a total coward to go alone. he's a total ass too.
but i'm also desparate for money too, not that they're paying a lot. but i need all the money i can get.
it's 1.05am. and i'm listening to Ra.D's I'm In Love, which is such a nice song.
good night people, sweet dreams.
I'll be dreaming of Dongwoon.
one more thing to add, Dongwoon always ask b2uties to dream of him. XD